Excited anxiety

Summer break is almost over and it’s time to get focused on the last year of high school and of being a child.

Now I’m at the top of the food chain, I’m a senior. Senior year is supposed to be known for the best nine months of one’s life. But if you’re a new student, I’m not exactly sure if that’s true.

Usually, a person spends a total of four years at one high school. As for me, this is my third high school in four years. Obviously, adapting to a new school isn’t something that is foreign to me. So still having to attend student orientation as an upperclassman is pretty awkward.

Being lost in the hallways, trying your best to make good first impressions, and making it through the first day of school is the most nerve-wracking part. But once all that has passed it will be time to kick back and enjoy my last year.

Unfortunately, not every aspect of my senior year will be all fun and games. Applying for colleges, exam weeks, and preparing to leave my house forever. That’s definitely something vital to spend most of my time focusing on.

As a child you tend to mistake your privileges as a right. When growing up, taking things for granted just happens to be a frequent occurrence. I can’t count on my hands how many times I stormed up to my room and wished I could leave my parents’ house already. Now that it’s getting closer to the time to do that, I’m not sure how thrilled I am to leave. According to my parents the only way you will stop taking life for granted is when you have to pay your own bills. Trying to grasp that there will be a day when I can no longer depend on my parents for everything is difficult.

Every event in life has its pros and cons, graduating high school and moving out of the house is definitely one of them. In this case I believe the bad outweighs the good. Not having to do chores, a curfew, and endless freedom are a few advantages. Having to pay for groceries, putting gas in my own car, and not having someone tending to me and directing me to get off of my iPod to study for a test are some big cons.

On my own, I may give in to temptations, and I think I’d rather spend time being on social media than studying. With my parents not around, I may have no one to help me stay focused, and focus is something I know I have to master if I want to get through four years of college.

I want to leave Wiesbaden High School with no regrets and my goal is to have fun no matter what. Then when I get to college I’ll be ready and excited for everything it has to offer.

I just hope when its time to walk across that big stage, in front of hundreds of people, to receive my diploma it will be by far the greatest moment of my life. (Kierra Carr, a soon-to-be senior at Wiesbaden High School, is a summer intern with the garrison Public Affairs Office)